You aren't back at 'square one'. You are back at 'Step 1'. Work that step....it's the only step you have to work to perfection....as I was told.

The beautiful thing about LIFE is being able to wake up the next day to begin again working the 12 steps to FREEDOM so that we might regain our SANITY. The flipside is that if we continue to drink, we could be DEAD, or wind up in JAIL, or an INSTITUTION. The contrast is obvious, is it not?

Peace and Love be with you,
Tim_S

yes they do.
Sounds like not such a good start to the year, huh?
Don't beat yourself up over it. but definately quit drinking.I know easier said than done.

The only requirement for membership around here is a desire to stop drinking.
I think it night even say that in a book.

Reach out for help.there are aa,na,sos,smart meetings and many other support groups out there for us.remember i said us and i mean that.and if worse comes to worse there are help lines as a matter of fact there is one on this site.i think thats on the home page.

Just keep trying.
marcus

Well you are here, admitting your faults and taking responsibility. That's a start. Try praying for the willingness and for the cravings to be manageable. I know it sounds week. But not as week as "maybe Ill have just one".

My prayers are with you. You can do it, but not by will, by God's grace.

No hemmorhage, thats what we do as alcoholic addicts is drink and drug! Our disease is also progressive, its like we never stopped! sounds like your at a critical point, best really consider stopping! Don't beat yourself up anymore, just get to a meeting, start calling your sponsor, work your steps, and start living! Be kind to yourself
Jim

My disease never stops progressing....it was real hard after my LAST relapse...You're in my prayers. GG

One is too many and a thousand is never enough, now get back in the wagon and sit right dab in the middle of it this time so if and when you hit the bumps of life on life's terms your less likely to fall off the wagon. I have been right where you are, that is when the realization hit me that I am an alcoholic and addict. Glad you made it back, now stick and stay : )

Hemmorrhage, thats what we do drink and drug, thats our disease!! Don't beat yourself up anymore, smile get to a meeting and start living! Remember Hun, this disease is progressive, even after long periods of sobriety, our relapses are like we remained drinking. It'll kill us! Cunning, Baffling, and Powerful! Ring any bells? Get to a meeting, the sun is shining! Let your life begin!

Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and try again. Do what worked and don't do what didn't. It's not always easy, but it is worth it. Remember, it's alcohol-ISm, not alcohol-WASm. Good luck and reach out to the ladies on this site. God bless and good luck. ...'trash..

If you're willing to start over again, get to a meeting and ask for help from the women. Get phone numbers from them and call them. Believe me, what helps us is helping you. Don't be hard on yourself. We've all been there. The first step starts with admission and you've done it here. Good luck and let us know how you're doing. WE CARE.

SORRY TO HEAR THIS HEM! THIS DISEASE PROGRESSIVE!!! SOME ONE TOLD ME "JUST THINK OF TURNING A STEREO VOLUME WAAAAY UP ,THEN UNPLUGGING IT .YOU COME BACK SAY 10,15 YRS LATER AND PLUG IT IN AGAIN, THE VOLUME IS STILL WAY UP! THASTS HOW HOW THE DISEASE JUST WAITS FOR YA, NEVER GETS BETTER,ALL WE HAVE IS A DAILY REPREIVE FROM DRINKING,BASED ON THE MAINTAINANCE OF OUR SPIRITUAL CONDITION. HOPEFULLY YOU HAVE BEEN SHOWN WHAT YOU NEEDED TO SEE. FORGIVE YOURSELF AND TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME!!! I RELAPSED AT 4.5 YRS SOBER,WENT RIGHT BACK TO WHERE I LEFT OFF AND THEN SOME.I HAD GOTTEN DISCONNECTED FROM ALL THAT HAD HELPED ME STAY SOBER UP TO THE DAY I DRANK THEN USED AGAIN.I THANK GOD I WAS ONLY OUT FOR 5 MOS THEN HAD ENUF.I AM POWERLESS AND MY LIFE IS UNMANAGEABLE WHEN IM NOT SOBER!!IM COMING UP ON 2YRS AGAIN IN APRIL BY THE GRACE OF GOD AND THE AA PROGRAM! IT WASNT EASY COMING BACK AND ADMITTING I'D RELAPSED BUT I DID IT ANYWAY! I HAD TO REALLY HUMBLE AND FORGIVE MY SELF!!JUST TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME ...I'LL BE PRAYING FOR YOU HUGS..... LORI

Having had too many relapses over the years to count, I once had a chat with my sponser about a "slip" which was a term I never liked. I likened it , for myself anyway to falling flat on my ass. He pointed out that once we know the program, we know what to do when this happens, get back up off our butts and work the steps. Good luck hon, hang in there.

I don't know if you are in A/A or not. If your are you fit the description of the 'Jaywalker.' Its an analogy of our propensity to appeal to the insanity of doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. If you jump off a roof you'll hit the ground every time. If you drink and drug you will hit the ground everytime-GAURANTEED. The spirtual science of A/A is Trust God, Clean house and help others. Those 3 simple things are as true as the law of gravity itself. Live your whole life this way and you will put together a lifetime of sobriety and honor...Prayers said on your behalf...Peace...

Please don't bet yourself up...that is exactly what your disease wants and exactly what will keep you drinking another day. Carry on with today and take each minute at a time without picking up. Please email me and I will give you my cell and talk anytime you need it. I am going through what I thought was tramatic and also thought of drinking and I need to tell you that your post helkped me sooooooooo much put everything into perspective...please email me and we can talk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!